now then only...

now then only i'm here to write... -_-'
so tired now...been in the city with ingsia from 9am til 9pm...
wanted to b 'EarlyBird' for shopping in the city today.
i didnt go to Uni..cuz went yesterday... to register n enrol...n,to find houses...

well...i gotta tell wat hav i done since i'm back here...(do i HAV to?)
yea yea...i think so, jz to keep as my memory...
tat day my family sent me to depart in PG airport...
i didnt cry...
no reason given.
when i arrived in KLIA,i was trying to look for The Body Shop to get Body Butter...--Passionfruit Flav--
n YeEn them were sitting there talking...well...i checked in together with them but hor...
none of us were sitting next to each other, so far summore...
next to me was a PRETTY GAL!~!!
then i arrived in the morning on 20/02/05...
i knew he would hav come to pick me up...together with IngSia...
n he did...even though i never asked...
^^ i'm quite satisfied...

i was so so so sleepy tat time...cause didnt sleep for 2 days...
n only slept for 50 mins during the flight from PG to KL,
n couldnt sleep in the 747 from KL to Melb...
dunno y...

i'm staying in IngSia's house...in her room...
n guess wat...i'm making her room so narrow and messy...HAHAHA
Sunday night i attent to Church Service in City...
a lot of new faces occurred...haha
found tat i'm alr old!!!
yaya~
n it was out of my expectation...there were so many members attent tat night
i tot a lot of them still in M'sia...LOL...

the next day i went to Clayton...took a stupid trip...
could take a bus from Boxhill to Clayton straight away but...
i took train to Richmond and change train to Caulfield...
n took shuttle bus to Clayton Campus...
kinda stupid huh? :P
everything was great tat day...i registered n enrolled successfully...
there were so many ppl queuing to make student card...
but when i went into Student Admission Centre i met my frens all there...
they let me to get into them so i nid not to queu...LOL...
n the student card's photo IS NOT ugly...HAHA...

after tat i went to find Claudia...
so hard...
so many ppl there,i dun hv her number...still...
n jz walking around to test my fate,,,
n i met her...we went to inspect some houses...
n we've got 1 at Dandenong St., Apt, with 2 rooms...quite good i think...
n cheap~

n today went shopping...
bought Converse's shoes...cheap~ much more cheaper than in city buying in Smith St...
next time if wanna buy cheap stuff better look in factory outlet lo...

hey u...i've read ur comment on my chinese words stuff...
wat r u doing? i'm not very sure...
y din u reply my sms?
did i say sth wrong?
or treated u bad?
if yes i apologise here...
plz...dun let me feel like...u r upset...
u noe i do care of u,very much...
u r sick now...take care of ur body...ok?
i dun wish to worry of u...

nid to sleep d...ingsia sleeping jor...
tmr nid to go uni again...
sien...

innocent look... 

kissing my daughter... 

dolls crazier...LOL 

they r all 1 family... 

looks like ah pek... 

best suite her,i meant the pinky specs...^^ 

my sons act as 'scarecrow' hohoho... 

looks 'in' wif the pinky specs... 

look at his smile...i'll put him a nice name later... 

new born bb wif my fave yellow shirt... 

my house's fish knows how to stand... 

i wish my daughter can marry wif him :P 

super duper ugly 

blur...

还是用中文比较适合自己...
朋友们刚刚回家, 眼皮好累好累
昨夜没睡，坚持到现在
心里一直在担心着,害怕着
住宿没着落，明天，哦，不,今天下午
就要上机了
行李，还欠些小小的日常用品
答应大家做的事情，还未完成
却很想睡觉了ZZZzzzZZZzz....

我知道我害怕的是什么了
是一段感情的结束，或是一段感情的开始
新的环境，重新适应

做人，不必太执著......必须潇洒面对事情
有时候.......面对任何一种的感情,也不必太认真

真的是这样吗？
那好。我会慢慢学习的。

墨尔本
我回来了，所谓的死城
我心里的死城
这几天，都不会上网吧。
得完成一切的手续之后，才会空闲了。
你啊你，别太想我了~:P

i'm using chinese words tis time...hwaha

新的学年，又得重新适应新环境。。。心里又在有舍不得身边一切的迹象。。。
但想想，去年的我，还不是一样吗？
更何况，去年是第一次去那里生活，没有朋友，一切都是自己开始打理的。
而今年，已经有熟悉的朋友，教会，还有一个。。。嗯。。。男朋友，应该是没问题的吧。
但相比去年，现在的我，好害怕。
在十二个小时之内，我就要离开这里了。（谢谢你告诉我）
刚刚才适应这里的生活，就要另外适应另一个地方。。。
其实我不清楚自己在怕些什么。

啊。。。

你啊你。。。
别以为我是个无忧无虑的洋娃娃
洋娃娃也有忧虑的哦

gugu,me n ah mah(from left) at ah poon's house 

sis hugging 3 bros...: x 

lil miao with 'ba wan,sotong wan n hu yi'(from top) 

lil miao wanted to drive ah ma's car 

ah gong,ah ma,mummy n daddy with lil miao 

BM...hohoho 

born on 2/2/05...got her angpow n camera n hp n...... 

'family' pic...wakakaka 

getting bored...mah take pic lo... 

my daughter...stupid daddy let her to wear specs... 

prepared for so long on Valentines... 

losing grip

went to BM to meet them...(on Tuesday)
b4 tat steven fetched me n yF to pacific n we watched a very very very STUPID movie...
"XX vs Evil Dead" sth like tis...
tis movie is strongl NOT recommended for u guys...
but if u r reli reli boring, it isnt bad tho...
muahaha...
tot can overnight there...stupid daddy didnt allow to..
but it's good too...good for me...
i went there n met my "daughter"
she's lovely...cute n adorable...
her name is "xiao miao" ---小喵
tho she is a doggie...
took lots of crazy pics,...
n...we came back by train oh!

then ...the next day...
niencze departed at 11am...
hmm....
tis means...
i'm leaving so soon...
T_T
i will miss a lot of ppl arh...

went to a shop next to Wave to get my eyebrows curl...
^_^
with YF...
nice nice...
can jz put on mascara within 3 months oh...
then went jogging again...haha

n then,too tired...n i fell asleep...
i've got ah ru's sms...
telling tat he can't come...n asking me to take care
sure i will take care of myself...
if not,impossible he can do it kua?!
tis was expected...
well...i cant say anything...
everything seems depended on him...

n then...went out at 12am...n jz back nia...
went to ah poon's house to SIT SIT...
n of course...those GAMBLERS...no nid to say ga lah...
i brought my 3 sons to see their daddy...
n i saw my daughter too...
oh ya...forgot to tell my sons' name...
they are triple...
鱼丸，肉丸 and 苏东丸
later upload their pics...
today my sons r with me,daughter with daddy...
cause i will take her to AUS with me,n left sons for daddy...

hmm...guess...
wat's the plans for tmr?
now,even 24hours each day is not enuff for me...
i'm sleepy...but yet
i wanna online...
oh ya...U called...
so late lerh havent slept...
如果有一天
我们再见面
时间会不会倒退一点
也许我们都忽略
互相伤害之外的感觉

dunno...
suddenly so down...

sunny yellowish sunflower...always facing towards the sun... wif the heart full of confident... 

My Valentine's Day...

LOL,i had a very nice 'valentine's day' celebration...
wif u...
thank u ya...reli thanks a lot...
neva celebrated b4...
n it's special cuz its ur bday...

so tired now...
woke up at 10am n started working(preparing f00d) until 1pm i guess...
hmm...i was reli upset when doing those works...
cause scl open d...everyone's not here anymore....
very she bu de...
summore...i'm going back soon...
wat da.....
found tat tis holiday is so meaningful...
i had reli great time with frens...my budds...
had great experiences...
n i started to miss them since yesterday...
no one called or sms me to ask me out for gathering...
no one called to tell that they would come to my house...
suddenly felt so empty...without them...
felt like crying!!!

ah ru called at noon...
i reli hate him calling me...n talk with me...
but i dun wanna hate him...
i wanna take him as my gd fren...
how?

so happy when i got yeanfong's sms...
asking me out to jogging with her...
why not?
steven came to eat b4 he sent me to tmn transkrian
met YF there n we talked a lot......
she misses the days we spent together too...
wanted to cry when feeling bored...
wanted to go to BM to see them...
reli...we had GREAT GREAT time...
guys, i miss u all lah!!!
but...wana go BM to overnight tmr...havent asked for dad's permission yet...
a bit afraid to ask him...
haiii...

tot wouldnt b seeing soon u until next year d...hohoho
notti lah him...always bully me eh...
but jz now wanted bring me out for ice cream, wasnt a bad idea...
cause i lov icecream...hehe
but hor...very sui lo...
i shouldnt say tat go eat ice cream in 7-11 mia...seems that it's a CURSE...hahaha....n it came true ...LOL
went to Bkt Jawi but closed d...turned back to pekaka's jushuixuan...
there wasnt anyone there...
haha...but the 'gal' who served us very nice lerh...
from Jit Sin du zhong 1...
^^ studied abt insects b4 but turned to food sci after tat...

stupid cloth...but it suits U...
hahaha...'i'm a leng zhai'...
zhar dou...:P
u passed la u passed lah...got merit thim...near dist larh....
better than the guy sitting at another table :P
eh,we laughed whole night lah...
thanks for being my 'temporary' valentine...LOL...
n yea,told u i'm 'cute' eh lah...: x...
hwaahaha....
the green tea 'dong' was very nice larh..very sweet...like ur smile???
hwahaha....
n the...tang yuan...hahaha...the Jiu Niang Tan Yuan...
u like it hor?
got egg ler..gd for thin ppl only leh...

hoho...the ice cream..got from 7-11 at last...
hahaha...but its nice lah...
dark choc favour...
^^
my fave...

AND~jz noticed ur comment!
-_-'
it's better if it neva exists..
'dun wan tell u'
wat a comment huh...

thx for everything ler...
nice knowing u n meeting u...
hope u'll b better next time when i see u...

AH LEAN>>>U K AM PIAK!!!
still sms me tis time...
go sleep lah u!!!
BLEH~

hon...GLAD to receive ur "valentine's day" greeting leh~
altho its a bit late...
but i guess..u did it purposely lah u!!!

Happy Valentine's Day!!!

went Pacific to watch Constantine wif family...
bought a gift for my 'dear' since he promised to gimme the gift he wanted to giv his ex..
dunno wanna giv him not...cause it's too cute...

cant believe it's alr 14/02/05 alr...
this is the 3rd yr i hv bf on Valentine's Day...
but,always...they are not beside me...
get used to it alr...
last 2 yrs,he was in KL while me in hometown...
last yr,i was in Melb while he's in PG......
tis yr...i'm stuck here,he's back to Melb d...
seems like...i cant hv a bf right at this young age yet...
but i neva listen to God neither ask for his permission to do wat i wanna do..

well,sooneu,happy birthday...

ah ru...missed call me so many times for wat?!
altho i miss u...but i dun think i would like to see u...
when u called...i couldnt help...
my tears couldnt help...

n my 'dear'...
dunno wat to tell u...
but it's nice cuz i've been spending lots of time wif u n others...
n i understand ur feeling...i can feel it...
it's hard for u,right?
i'm so sorry i cant help in anything...
but...i wanna tell u...
dun drive too fast next time...

b4 goin bak...(told mum would go home b4 12am but then reached home at almost 3am:P)

BoKhEnG...(refused 2 meet him at mamak bt saw him after tat -_-') 

PB's Gurney GREAT FUN!!!!  

pretending to b couple :P 

my dear~^_^ 

on ah poon's car 

geng+yan=???(yau geng guan) :x 

wif my majesty MAHARAJA Ooi~^^ so proud ~ 

very ChUeN! 

ban cute -_-' 

yumChA!~(Ban Sai Ye) 

crazy ppl...LOL 

JuShuiXuan~all of us... 

i love 2night!!!

i'm now sweating~~~
we had a reli sweet night!!!
wanted to upload the pics but it's too late now,i jz got back home...
wanna take a shower b4 sleeping...
body full of 'mercun' smell~~~:P
went to Sg Krian after meeting them in "Ju Shui Xuan",Pekaka...
JUSHUIXUAN is a nice place..reli...upload some pics tmr...

oh ya...ah ru called today...^^
i can't tell the exact feeling...
but it's reli nice to hear his voice again...
i'm hoping to see him next week...b4 i go back to Melb...

Peik Hong's back here!!!
YAY...i got a company again~~~
LOL...missed her so much ^^

well...i think i hv to stop here...cause tmr got Sunday Service n i nid to go earlier...
for worshipping practise -_-

accident...

today's 'CHU 3'...planned to hang out wif frens for a whole day BuT...
slept so late last nite...(shud b 5am if i'm not mistaken...)
therefore,woke up so late larh...

went to BaiNian with whole bunch of frens...wanted to go sing K in PG but too bad...
ah lean my dear drove us...
on the bridge we had an accident...
7 cars together...
'BANG~BANG~BANG!!!"
couldn't believe it happened to us -_-
today shud b a gd day...
but since tis morning everything wasnt going well...
symbol for bad things...aiiii...
luckily none of us got injured...
we r happy-go-lucky ppl...
we took tis accident for granted...
:P

i sent my hon a sms,telling him tat we had involved in an accident...
n he called...^^
so long din hear his voice d...
so nice talking with him again...
my piggie~piggie~

installed the program for pics posting here...
so nice,i can post recent pics...
n keep them here well...^^
well,i'm tired enuff...n sleepy too...
so sad cause of the accident...
ah lean got scolded cham...
hai....i wish tat it never happened...
i wish tat i can help...

my bf?-NaH...my dEaR...- 

wif ah Ping~ 

b4 goin out -_-' 

the sunset~ 

still got mood to take pic 

wat the... 

'zi lian' LOL 

with my Tang Di on 09Feb~ 

09Feb2005 with HuiPing 

hmm...

jz back from Starbucks,Pacific...with my budds...
so long din talk n 8 wif them d,din miss them very much...
but when we were talkin jz now,i felt tat...it's reli nice havin them^^

To My Frens:
Thank you for being my good friends,who always stand by me,I really appreaciate having you all in my life.

hoho,we were so crazy jz now...
me,ah poon,HPing,YFong,n the only boy...Durian...
YF drove us to Hong Fan Qu to hv 'their' dinner...(since i was full jz now)
n then it was so so hot,so we went starbucks to continue our' interesting' topics...
wakakaka~
we talked abt how to punish a raper...
talked abt the scl's presentation...(tat's disgusting man...'she' used a huge banana to present a penis) :x [cencored]
n the durian...hha...he's so FUNNY!!!
n we sang crazily in the car... :P
n shouted loudly,laughed loudly...
until my throat is so 'siap siap' now...hahaha!

n yet,we talked abt each other's relationship...
can't believe that JOSHUA (fren's ex) is SO SO SO CHEAP!
if i see him 1 day, i'll stare him until he dies! :x

n,durian,it's hurt to hear tat u r back to single life now...
well,we can't expect wat'll happen next...
never regret of the past...
i'll always support u!!!

oh ya,great to hear that Phyion's bear bear got married~ Shelby,wat a nice name ^^
all the best for both of u~

hmm,regards to wat i'm facing now...
my dear,r u gonna leave me?
i've been preparing to accept watever u wanna tell me in da future...
i understand tat u r very busy n stressful...
bt,do u still miss me n lov me like b4?
we had sweet time together...
i miss the days...
i can feel a lot of things...but i'm not daring enuff to accept...
time changes everything...
i always wish tat u pamper me a lil bit more...
do tell me ur feelings always,ok?
n i wish tat u r the only one for me...

Happy CNY!!!

Well,I dun hav the feeling of CNY -_-
i've been trying to find out the reasons but i couldn't...
i used to get very excited during CNY...but, now, nope...not at all...
how?
can sum1 tell me y???

i'm so sleepy but not willing to sleep now...hoping tat i can do sth else...
Hmm...wat can i do at this moment?
it's alr deep in da night...~sigh~
Ehhh,wait a min...
got more than 7 Stephen Chow's movies here erh!!!
WOW~~~
if i dun watch one of them,i can watch my hustband's live concert too...hehehe,,,Jay~~~
but my eyes wanna close d lerh...

sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh
my dear rather miss his dog than missing me!
wat da~
SUAK
SUAK
SUAK
i'm not worthy~~~

maksiap d

gosh,tmr new year eve d...time flies~
me still sitting here chatting...cuz of wat??? later if daddy come out from his room then me die~
tmr nid to go PG so early,to get the urine test neh~~~hopefully everything can b done tmr!~!!!
God ~ HELP ME!
shit 1,tmr daddy gonna bring his mistress come back to reunion dinner...
he so anxious,wanted us to clean this n that jz now...
n me slept at 4am,woke up at 7am, then working non stop until jz now...damn...
bt,it's worthy..haha...cause i've got Jay's Incomparable Concert in Taiwan~~~!!! watched for a whole night :P
after watching i'm more into him d larh~~~ he's so so s o nice~
hey, U, got miss me not??? if miss mah say miss lo,if not mah deny nia loh...
haha....
oh ya...1 more thing...
do i look more adorable when i'm serious?!!!

tired...

yer,i was so happy to receive CoE yesterday but...-_- tot all can b done today...but when i was doing body check up they wan us to do the urine test...so damn i'm during period....n the date been postponed again...but so glad the seat on 19 Feb is comfirmed.
well,nid to go PG again to get the urine test..hope that period alr dried tat day...
today saw Adele n met Ah Chuen///hah....they are so cute~
i had reli great time spending with them...yum cha with ah chuen ... in Secret Recipe was fun... we talked a lot....n i kept KUTUKing him...:P pai seh~~~
n guess,who i've met when yum chaiing~~~
Hubert!!!! oh man... the world is so SMALL!!!haha~~~glad to see him again~~~
n dear my sweetheart,if u wan ur face to recover quicker, plz sleep ealier!!!
nitez!!! i'm so tired d~~~

happy happy~~~

today's reli great!!!
i went visiting my uncle n aunty,then when i reached home i received a call telling me that finally i've got my COE!!! Muacks!! Thank God~~~ ^_^
Hohohoho,tmr dad n mum will accompany me to get the COE n welfare letter to b certified in PG hi-court,after tat i tok can do body check up d!!!
Hoorrayyy!!! Yayyy!!! ^_^
but,i'm tired now~ ArhHhHh!!!

well,PeikHong has left until after CNY...a bit miss her d...
i've been spending days wif her doing silly things n funny things...she's reli a lovely cousin~

aiii...another bad news here...i wanted to get thinner til 50kg by CNY but i can't make it d...
mayb everyday got upset by the Monash stuff...DAMN...n stressed up so i ate a lot...
muahahah~but nvm d lah...as long as i can go back to Melb b4 28Feb then everything's alright for me...but not including get dumped by bb larh huh...
hmm...thinking tat,bb might b watching his series now... but,dun care lerh...as long as he can get out of stress...hehe...

CNY coming ~~~ seems like...i havent learnt sth new...eh eh...nonono...i've learnt a lot!!!
last few nights there was a guy sent me a msg in ICQ telling me that he wanted to commit suicide...and i was so frustrated cause he didnt care abt watever i told him...
so at last i threw him this :"if u wan to die u go die lah! tell me for wat?! --The End--" :P
then i tok shut down the icq d...hehehe...n i've jz got his msg jz now... he sent me a smiley face at the beginning...n then told me that, he didnt commit suicide...
shit lah him,i also know lah...if died jor how to send me msg?!
at last he realized that it's not worthy to kill himself cuz when he was screaming n crying tat wana kill himself,he thought of his past...
whenever he felt like his world is ending,there were always hopes...

there are always hopes when we are hopeless...hahaha...
that's why, we are made of God the Father, to b Perfectly Imperfect...

sO FULL!

erh...jz came back from a cousin's wedding dinner...
when i was thinking who's the bride,i saw my aunt helping her making up...
n...i was shocked...aH ZhU?! couldn't believe it's her!!!
well...i cant say much abt her...
i'm now,sincerely wishing her, Happy Wedding forever~

yer...so sleepy d...
last 2 days we made mooncake ohhh,,,n they are so delicious!!!
oh man, can't believe that i can cook n finally make food!!!
but not very well lah~still in progress to b a good cook...HeHehe

oh my stomach...so full so full...ate too much jz now...forced to eat -_-'
yea,i'm very tired n sleepy d...
gd night all of ya...
n to my dear, gd night + muacks~

how d?

i've been so busy...doing with nothing...
mum didnt allow me to online...so,,,long time din write d...
hmm...my best budd's bday was yesterday...i wasnt the 1st to wish her Happy Birthday but i wanted to b the last to wish her but ... -_- wat the.... i sms her but she told me another guy was the last, not me -_-
suakkkkk!!!

yor,eating a lot these days...
cause learning to cook n make this n that...hav to try the taste...
but still doing exercise not to gain weight...
n ... these days...dunno why... weather bcame so hot...
it's like water boiling around me... until i'm cooked!!!
arh,,,can't tahan d...i go bom bom now...