Thanks guys <3

in lab
western blotting today

yum cha at blackburn rd this morning,
thanks fayang, fahe, fasheng, dao xin, augustine, kenny, janet, kylie, jessica, elaine, hanson, hanjun, and janice,
for the nice brunch and lovely cake...
i seriously appreciate for all of these :)

wanna call mummy now
^^

:'(

在研究室也有一段时间了
之前忙着写litrev,过后又有stats assignment和另一个litrev...
生活过得很匆忙
到现在也不知道这几个月来
到底做了什么

基本上
lab里面的环境已经慢慢熟悉了
reagents也知道方哪里了

可是偏偏就是
因为自己的粗心
很多次的实验都作废了
虽然只是练习而已
可是
自己的神经大条搞到每次的实验做了又做
:'(

我要好好努力
更加认真才行
:'(

!!!!!!

knn!!!
miss family so much...n finally i'm free to chat online...
but hell the msn is working idiotically!!!

n yet mummy keeps appearing offline
the messages usually can't get through
then she keeps asking where am i
where else can i be oh!!!
then keep asking me some nonsense T-T
mum, please, stop this T-T

geeeez i know i should not get frustrated so easily at this moment
but i'm seriously pissed!!!

numb

so much things happened recently
until i feel numb abt everything
things just happen unexpectedly
without any notices
without any concerns

i'm afraid to call back home
i'm afraid to answer overseas calls
i'm afraid to receive overseas sms
i'm afraid to receive messages from someone i know so well
i'm afraid to receive bad news
i'm afraid to face the real life in this real world

now i feel that everything is just nothing
and nothing, is actually everything i have

i know all of these are part of life
i know i can't avoid all of these
i love my family
i love my friends
but
i wish i can escape

but how
no one knows

is there any places i can hide from disasters forever???

inconclusive life.

life goes on, with the numbness

yun, R.I.P.

yun, sorry for not attending your funeral today...
you will find jun up there, God and him will take good care of you.
you are free from everything now.
rest in peace...

冷冷的下雨天

*听着佳礼论坛《吱喳什么》举办的五一劳动大联播

好久没来了
一半是因为我懒惰
一半是因为...
忙？

算是吧

这一年不好过啊~~~

其实明天需要讨论biostatistic的assignment
不过基于时间上的问题
没有办法出席(其实是还没有做完=.=)
hehehe

最近在试着把整个research融入自己的生活里
早上醒来想着
每一分每一秒在想着到底要怎样才好
负责教我的那一位senior
在赶着她的thesis
还剩下三个星期
她就要完成她的PhD了
所以没空鸟我
:(
找了几乎每一个人谈过了
唯有这里学学那里学学
到处请教
毕竟自己的experiments要用的techniques
都要很熟悉很上手

最基本的cell culture我都做不好
超级沮丧
已经丢了三盘cells了
前两盘是因为protocol里多了一个不必要的step
搞到我把细胞全都吸光光了
第三盘呢
contamination
:'(
今天下午弄了两盘
希望明天去的时候
他们都活得健健康康的

还有呢
已经五月了
我需要做一个长时间的experiment
为期六个星期？
还没开始的
希望六月尾可以很顺利地完成>.<
想到都紧张:'(

statistic呢
有谁是很厉害的？T_T
救救我嘛
15号有一个3000字的literature review要交
就下个星期一定要交draft了
statistic assignment 12号要交阿~~~
我还在试着慢慢理解
:S

天气慢慢越来越冷了
雨还是照样地下
:( 下雨天
心情够糟了
还这么冷
只想躲在被单里面过日子 :(

最近生活还蛮单调的
没什么特别的
星期一至五都要早早去lab
回到家最早6pm?
最迟有到9-10pm :S
没有固定的时间
有时候实验拖到很迟 -_-

现在开始实验了
星期六和日也要回去看看 -_-
最开心的时候
应该是看youtube了 =.=

当然
还有睡觉咯
:$

好啦
该收拾心情做做下stats了
懒惰虫 走开走开~~~~~~~~